just an abnormal girl living in a normal world.

Well my friends and relationships.
No offense if any of yall actually read this shit, but I’m tired.
Some of yall need just need to keep it in your fucking pants and just chill for a while.
Some of yall go through relationships more than yall change your damn underwear.

Maybe it’s just me, even though my father is a whore, my mom isn’t.
I guess I get it from her side because my 3 brothers have been with their wives/girlfriends for 20+ years.
My parents before my dad gassed, breaked, and dipped they were (and technically still are) married for 30+ years.

I just can’t see myself just dating around and stuff.
Tried it, wasn’t a big fan.

In my family, at my age, people started to have kids and getting married and shit already.
So I’m behind the curve already, I’m ok with that I suppose.
The wanting to get married thing comes and goes.
I’m pretty sure AJ doesn’t want to marry me, and if he does not anytime soon.
I just want to know my relationship is secure for the future after seeing all these failed relationships via my friends.
I think it’s because I’m bored or maybe because I’m seeing my friends getting engaged, having kids, and what have you.

She always asks the wrong things at the wrong time.
I can be just waking up, she’ll ask me about how much money my dad has in his bank account.
Seriously, that’s not something I want to talk about when I first wake up woman.

Then she’ll ask about a friend, then say why don’t you talk to them no more or whatever.
Not my fault that they’re all full of themselves that they couldn’t be a good friend.
I don’t have time for people who are there for you when it’s convenient.

If I go out with Dominique, it always comes down to “Why did you leave the bookstore? You had that job before she did”
Like seriously, I don’t know how many fucking times I’m gonna tell you the same thing over and over again.

Maybe she’s just trying to make conversation, but that’s not how you go about it.

Next Blog: Relationship Observations. or something along the lines of that.

I’m kind of tired of being stuck in the damn house.

It’s like I can go somewhere because I bought an unlimited monthly metrocard when I went to go work rush at the bookstore, but I don’t have anywhere to go or anyone to go with.
It’s so bad, that I’m willing to work for free!
I’m applying for volunteer jobs, and I’m not getting call backs.
Yes, I have resorted to applying to Macys.

*sigh*

My birthday is about a month away and I’m trying to do something so my birthday doesn’t suck ass.
I wanted to go to AC but that’s kinda expensive, so I’m thinking the Poconos instead.
It’s way cheaper and if I get the right people to go, it’ll be funnnn.

If I don’t go to the Poconos, I will attempt going to the club again.
I went ONCE in my life and I hated it. It was for Parri’s Birthday, we went to Webster Hall, everyone split up and left me by myself and then they were about to LEAVE without me.
So, yeah I haven’t attempted that again.

I’m gonna start looking for dresses and other outfits to wear.
I have a dress that I bought last year that I really like to wear, but it’s too small.
I was trying to lose weight and have my deadline be my birthday so I could fit into it, but that’s not happening.
I have another dress in the closet though, but I’m spoiled, I have to wear something new on my birthday.

Done rambling for now.
I’m gonna try to blog more and make use of this thing instead of talking to myself in my head about all these things lol.

I mean I love laying around not having anything to do, but I hate it at the same time.
There’s only so much time one can spend in the house not doing anything.
I need me a job.

I’m even thinking to reapply at Macy’s. *shivers*
Maybe not Herald Square though, I’m thinking Kings Plaza would be less stressful and it’s easier to get to since it’s like 7 blocks away.

I just want to start saving up so when those student loans come knocking in June I can pay them with no problem.

I got part of my tax refund back, so I used that to pay off the old navy card and my chase credit card that I used to buy AJ’s presents with.

All I have to pay right now is the cell phone bill and my citicard and the money I take from my dad’s bank account every month covers that lol.

So hopefully by next year I can have this dumb citicard paid off and all I’ll have to worry about are my loans.

Well I finally got that second interview with that job I was talking about since like November-December.
Turns out one of my friends is going for the same position too.
But I think the second interview went well.
He said the fact that he asked me back for a second interview puts me in the running to be the selected candidate, or something like that.
So hopefully I hear something from them soon, by next month or latest April.

That’s pretty much it.

Happy New Year!
I know I’m 3 weeks late, but hey it’s better than nothing.

Well anywho… um…
If you didn’t know, I passed all my classes!
So in essence I’m done with undergrad at NYIT!
I just have to mail in some papers for my financial aid exit interview, email my advisor, and sit and wait for my diploma and commencement.

Now I’m still waiting on interview #2 with the engineering firm.
I have to email him all the freaking time.
I swear if I don’t get this job, I’m gonna flip.

The telemarketing place keeps calling me, but minimum wage 3 days a week ain’t shit.
If I get real desperate, then I just might have to take it.
But I’m waiting on the job on the engineering firm, I don’t want my degree to go to a total waste yet.

I got a Wii for Christmas, and those exercise games, so I’ve getting my workout on.
My weight isn’t shifting though, but hopefully it moves soon.

I guess I’ll make a separate blog about that later on.